u do not understand the insecurity i feel
u do not realize the pain u had given me
u will never truly know me
since u never even tried
u may say u love me
yet u never really live up to those words
u said u r here for me
but every time that i came to u
u treat me like an annoyance
u kept me distance from your world
u treat me like a stranger
u may occasionally treat me nice
but then u dump me like trash
i am not happy,
because i'm not worth as much as
he is to me,
i am sad because,
he can love me,
and never again as easy as that,
i am devastated because,
i love him,
still do,
and always will,
i am ruin because,
i trusted him,
when people already disappointed me,
enough to make me never to trust anyone ever again,
i am damage because,
i am still holding on,
when there is nothing to held on to,
this is why,
i am not cut out for life,
this is absolutely why,
suicide always came in mind,
as death seems so tempting..
it's so easy to say,
blame it on u,
for all this while,
but no matter what,
i'm still here hurting,
the damage's done,
leaving in pain,
drowning me in despair,
yet u don't give a damn,
i give up,
i give up,
i thought if i knew sooner,
that life is unfair,
i'll find my way,
to live on,
no matter what,
but know i realize,
the knowledge is useless,
i give up,
on everything i ever believe in,
even though there might be reasons to kept on living,
but i had no reasons to put up with all this,
there is nothing i had left,
that can make me moving on,
therefore i give up,
upon this life of mine..
