death seems tempting

i am not happy, because i'm not worth as much as he is to me, i am sad because, he can love me, and never again as easy as that, i am devastated because, i love him, still do, and always will, i am ruin because, i trusted him, when people already disappointed me, enough to make me never to trust anyone ever again, i am damage because, i am still holding on, when there is nothing to held on to, this is why, i am not cut out for life, this is absolutely why, suicide always came in mind, as death seems so tempting..